I think as a whole, I am proud of myself.  I really grew into a more settled, believable human being this year.  I’ve extended friendships to unexpected acquaintances.  I’ve let loose and let go.

This weekend bears evidence of this transition.  The Crystal Ballroom holds an 80s video dance party on a routine basis and by chance, we attended.  Although there is safety in numbers, I think I’ve strayed from comfort.  I’ve learned to be okay being alone.  And to make a fool of myself.  Despite the fact that I went with my roommate, I made an effort to dance with strangers, dance in a conga line, and dance solo.  Because really, who cares?  Who is judging?  And if they are—what does it matter?  At the root of all this is yourself.  And if you are enjoying who you are, then why not be quirky and whimsical.  Why not.

There are parts of me which are a bit rough, I’ll admit.  I’m more materialistic than I let on.  I consume way too much and don’t extend hands to people who need them.  I gossip.  I pull away when someone starts to cling.

But I recognize these things, so perhaps that’s a start.  Material possessions are temporary.  They are fleeting.  People are wonderful.  And people have feelings.  Who am I to hurt someone else?  Who am I to act superior, preying on another’s insecurities when the comments derive from my own weakness?  It’s time to be nicer.

Things I am proud of:

Going for it

Open-mindedness

Creativity

Novel reading.  Yep, I’m proud that I can read.

Things I can continue to work on:

Curtailing consuming

Being considerate

Not partaking in gossip

Smiling more :)

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